This is the first time I’ve sat down to write anything other than I thank you card since my son, Rider, was born three-and-a-half months ago.
I’m so mad at myself for this. A few years ago when I was an editor at Weight Watchers Magazine, I blogged about my experience losing weight and eventually training for an Ironman triathlon and it was incredibly rewarding. Sharing my struggles with food and the craziness of that Ironman journey in small blog posts helped me to process the experiences and now when I look back at them, I remember that time much more vividly.
I thought I’d do the same with my experience of becoming a mom, but there was never a time when I could sit down alone and process my thoughts. Before having a baby, I wrote in my journal often. Drinking my morning cup of coffee and writing by hand in my journal was the quickest way for me to feel calm and get ready for the day. I’d often do that a few times a week and since having Rider, I’ve done it once and that entry was stopped half way through because he woke up needing to be fed and I haven’t touched the book since.
Instead my days were spent watching way too much TV, scrolling through Facebook and Instagram, and googling various things Rider did to make sure he was a normal, healthy developing baby—all while breastfeeding or pumping. When he was sleeping or hanging out in his swing and I had a chance to eat a meal—until I finally got the hang of breastfeeding him while eating. It’s not bad at all, except for the crumbs that occasionally fall on his head. He doesn’t seem to mind though—, I’d be at the computer again eating with one hand and pouring over the site Kellymom.com (to get answers to my seemingly endless questions on breastfeeding) with the other.
But now that the haze of new motherhood has lifted a bit, I have some time to write a blog post now and again. I still haven’t gotten a second entry in my journal. Rider seems to have a sixth sense and always needs to eat just when my fork touches a plate of hot food (I’ve gotten used to eating most things cold now) and when my pen touches the page of my new journal. I’ve decided to resurrect this blog, which I started to chronicle my experience loving all things girly (makeup, dresses, poufy ponytails) and also loving sports which are decidedly “un-girly” like Crossfit (which gives my calluses) and triathlon training (wind burn, goggle marks, thigh chafing, need I say more?). I do plan on getting back to those activities, but for the time being motherhood is the next great endurance event. Just like doing an Ironman or running up all the steps of the Empire State Building, being a mom has so many non-glamorous moments, but all three are more rewarding than you can ever imagine.
I hope you’ll follow along as I record what I learn along the way, my journey to get back in shape (15 lbs and a big belly pouch are keeping me from wearing my pre-baby clothes), and keeping track of this new test of my stamina called parenthood.
















